this song explains my life right now

Don’t patronize I realize I’m losing and this is my real life
I’m half asleep and I’m wide-awake this hait is always so hard to break
I don’t want to be the bad guy
I’ve been blaming myself and I think you know why
I’m killing time
And time’s killing you
Every way that I do
Did you say, please just follow me
I thought you wanted me because I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up I just can’t suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I’m under the gun feel like the only one
I just can’t decide what I’m running from
This isn’t what I wanted but I can’t keep my filthy fucking mouth shut
It’s not enough
It’s never enough and I wish I could breath without it getting stuck
Can’t focus it but I try over and over again

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